Find Reasons to be Happy :-D

So, I came across this poem a while back and have been meaning to post it for quite sometime. But haven’t gotten around to doing it mainly for 2 reasons: 1. I have been preoccupied with college work and the people in my life; 2. My net hasn’t been working which, honestly, I borrow from someone (without their knowledge) 😛 !!!

Lately, the people in my life have been going through some tough situations, and I have tried my level best to be there for them and to see them through the mess. But now I have run out of advice. I am clueless when one of them asks me to soothe them. Honestly, I don’t know what to do anymore. My reserve of sympathy and advice and my capacity to help out seems to have dried out. I don’t like it but I don’t see an option. I am trying very hard to be there, but you know how at the end of the day, how much ever you try to help out, everyone has to fight their own battles.

All I can say to them is find reasons to be happy. Don’t look at the dark side and shed silent tears. Your life is too short and your tears too precious to be spent in vain. Be happy for all those people who are still around you. Live life with them. Because when you’re drowning in your own misery, you may just not know that there are others who are fighting greater battles than you are. So stop being all sad, look around, take time out to ask people around you how they have been, laugh your ass off at the depressing joke your even more depressing friend just cracked, look at the sun set and be happy that it will come back tomorrow. Enjoy all while you still have it, lest you lose even that in your self induced misery. Love will happen again. Till then bask in the glory of the amazing friendships you have built.

And for someone else, how do you know when you’re in love? You just know. Because it’s the best thing that has happened to you in a long time. And you don’t want to say goodbye, ever.

I am leaving you with the poem. Its is called I Wish You Had Never Come Back. Not exactly that great, but at the time it was a plea for someone to not come back and take away what was so precious to me. Its been a while since then and I felt like sharing it with you folks. Hope you have a good read. Miss me till my next post :-P.

I Wish You Had Never Come Back

I wish I could have it all back.

I wish I could turn back time.

I wish you had never come back,

to take what was most precious,

away from me.

I hate you for doing that to me.

I hate you for doing that to him.

I wish you had never come back.

While you were gone,

I was the pillar of strength,

I was the shoulder to cry on,

I was the one to hold.

While you were gone.

I guess, I should have seen this coming.

I should have known all along that this would end.

I should have known that you would come back.

I should have.

And you ain’t coming back to me.

I know that for sure.

Coz now you’re gone,

away for the good.

With someone you would be happy with.

I know that for sure.

I will miss you and me.

I will miss us together.

But more than that,

I will miss you with me.

And, I wish you had never come back,

to take what was most precious,

away from me.

I hate you for doing that to me.

I hate you for doing that to him.

I wish you had never come back.


From the Window Ledge

I sit there on the ledge of the window, leaning out, looking at the starless sky and feeling the warmth of the cold wind. The only sounds are the tic-tac of the keyboard, the crackling of the paper and the distant horn of a car driving into its destiny as I sit here wondering about life and actions.

We are logical human beings who put thought into our actions. But we too are made by some not so logical, impulsive actions that more often than not define our life. We hate to admit that to ourselves but in the secrecy of our hearts we know that is what makes us who we are. When we aren’t thinking about the consequences of our actions, when we let go and take life as it comes. Because in the end, that’s the sub- conscious we are acting upon and that roots from what we are.

When we sit back and look at the life past, we want to make sure that it’s all rosy, all right. But we have a lot of wrong stashed away in our histories, to make the past not so rosy red and fabulous. It’s the mistakes that have made us into what we are today. Without them, we would have been a mankind without experience living in the same rut and retro age of the past. But that is not meant to be. Like humankind, we too have learnt from our past but have still decided to commit those same mistakes in the name of love and friendship. “Like all wars start for profit and principle but are fought for the land and its women.”

Even in our right minds, we have made mistakes. We have committed them when the alarm in the back of the head is blaring out “It’s wrong”. So what is it that makes us take the leap from the right to the wrong, in the blink of an eye? Is it the love for the person that has kept us going, or is it the pure adrenaline rush of knowing the taboo, or is it catharsis for the already- done wrong? Are we pushing ourselves into it by choice so that we may forget the good that was, to lie, sallow and valor in the misery of our lives by taking a deeper plunge into the well of wrongs! To do ourselves some harm for have spoilt a life that was good to be true.

I guess that is how people who can’t be rescued from their misery are made. Because in order to forget their wrong decisions, they start to live them till the point that those decisions is what makes them.

So wake up! Look ahead, put thoughts into your actions again, do the right, correct the wrong, because the only one who can rescue you from the fate that you’re driving into, is yourself. Don’t throw away a good life because you don’t have the balls to face the doing of your sorry self. Man up! Make the right move, take the next right turn and get your life back in order before it’s too late and you have lost that one love that had kept you going.

PS: To Hank Moody…